Self-improvement - I know I can do this

After all that was happened, sinabi ko sa sarili ko "Hinde na ko iiyak, lalaki lang yan..madami namang iba dyan..Wag mong ikulong ang sarili mo sa isang taong hinde ka nman pinahalagahan..MOVE ON...MOVE FORWARD..

Three days na ng umalis ng pilipinas si waiver..At some point naaalala ko pa sya..Iniiyikan...Pero sa tuwing naaalala ko ang mga katangahang nagawa ko, natatawa na lang ako sa sarili ko..Para akong baliw..Kulang na lang ipasok ako sa mental..Wag naman sana...

"I have to change myself..Improve it, that when there is chances I would meet someone..Kaya ko ng umayos ng kilos..magpakadisente..Act normal..yung hinde basta basta susugod ng hinde nag-iisip..I have to become a mature man..I will try to improve myself..First step is to leave GML for some time..Para naman makapag-isip ako..at ng malayo sa lahat ng issues na nag-uugat sa GML..Its hard for me, especially lahat na kilala ko na, naging malapit na sa akin, but I can deny the fact na meron pa din handang sirain ako..They judged me for what they seen on me physically..Judgemental sila..Kung ano nkikita nila sa labas yun kana din sa loob..I have to prove that they're wrong..At magagawa ko lang yun for a span of time, maybe a year will do..

NO chat, no texts, no calls, no FB, no social life for the meantime..Focus sa work..Help help sa family..Yun lang ang mga bagay na magagawa ko sa ngayon...

Be contented..dont ask on anything in excess..Be thankful on what you have right now..Kung noon masyado ako nghahangad ng lovelife..Now I have to learn how to wait..Accept on what God is planned for me..Face it..Love it..Treasure it..

Be happy always...Kung ayaw mong iprusisyon sa Quiapo, wag kang sumimangot..Nagkandahaba na ang nguso mo kakaismid sa mga bagay na sana ibinigay na sayo ng diyos..Whatever trial comes, be thankful..At least God knows how to make you a strong person..And God gave only problems na kaya mong solusyunan..

I just 21..too early para sabihing napag-iwanan na ako ng panahon..too early para sabihin "why I should be on dark side of life  kung pwede naman ako sa light side.."
I have to live my life to the fullest..Be happy on the things I have now..Dont ask for anything beynd God's grace..Be thankful for all the mornings you wake up..and especially for the good life I have now..

Someday, you will see me on a new version..a better version of me...:)